Not A Good Idea

I could have gone to bed nine hours ago. I knew that today was going to be my first day as a CNA at Heartland. I instead decided to finish the Gilmore Girls Season 7 DVDs so I could return them to the library tomorrow while I was out to avoid late fees. I could have then gone to bed around 3am. But I got the notion that I should write. So I went to the new writing blog that I created a few days ago, shamikalashawn.wordpress.com and from then to now have been writing new material as well as consolidating old material from around the web. I have not slept yet and I have to be at work in about an hour and a half. I believe I have to be there today until 5 too.

Anyway, after perusing my notes on facebook, my entries here, and even old myspace entries, I discovered some gems I long forgot I wrote. I also have ideas for a few pieces to jumpstart my first official year as a writer.

I also relived a few moments of my life, promiscuous girl, living with my inlaws in San Antonio, all the times I have been waiting for things to move forward. It has been a while since I have updated, so with a little perspective on where I have come from, I can do so now with a few inclinations as to where I want to go.

I will be working full time 10pm to 6am at Heartland as a CNA five days a week. I will be hostessing or working in the store at Cracker Barrel between 5 and 8 whatever days they decide to put me on the schedule. Classes are out until the end of January and both of my roommates are gone. Joanne left yesterday and Christy left a week ago. I have the apartment all to myself.

I hope to gain experience and contacts at Heartland so that I can move into a private care situation. I believe the CNA position will be most profitable and easier to manage with one household and a simpler work load.

My lease is up in August and I do not know if I will have paid Stanford down enough by then to return next school year or if I need to renew my lease at this apartment complex or if I should find my own place. Because I don't know whats going to be happening, so many things being in the air, I will need to make sure I have contingency plans in place and remain focused on what I do know.

This coming Chinese New Year happens to fall on Valentine's Day. It will be a very special day for me. A day of beginnings, hope, and love. I know who I want to share it with. But I don't know what will happen and if there will be a celebration of love or a mourning of it.

Either way, I have painted myself into a corner and must stay awake. I will enjoy the Spongebob Season 1 DVD Box Set my mom's boyfriend sent me for Christmas in the Snuggie that my mom and younger sister picked out for me. There is hopefully one more Christmas gift for me in the mail. Naturally, if I don't get it by the end of the week, it won't be a Christmas gift if I even get it at all.