Random Vacation

I happen to have a week off work, which is great because I need to re-calibrate and equalize myself.

I no longer work as a CNA. I have one job, and its at Cracker Barrel. And my availability has me only working during the week so I will have Saturdays and Sundays off. This semester I have history and philosophy and at the end of the school year, I will have earned 6 college credits from Bard College in New York.

People have asked me before if I would just go to another university and sometimes I have to try hard not to give them a sarcastic "Uh, no. Its STANFORD. As in Stanford University in California."  But right now, in this moment, I could go off somewhere small and start over. Go to a community college and get an associates then apply to a larger university and graduate from there. Of course, that would take time and I wouldn't have enough financial aid because of the 3 years worth of financial aid the government supplied me with at Stanford.

Le sigh.

So much of my life is unfinished, broken, missing, gone, and so on. This isn't the kind of rut I want to live through my twenties in.

I have been going out to karaoke and played rock band Sunday with an interest to return next Sunday. I have plans to explore both downtown Champaign and downtown Urbana which together don't comprise half of downtown San Antonio, so I can accomplish each in a day and leisurely so. I hope I can manage my time well enough so that once its gone I can look back with appreciation.