What's Goin On

It has been a very long time since I have written in my blog.  I don't even remember when the last true update was. So, I am going to make an assessment of my life in this moment.

I spent a week going to karaoke every night and was hit on by two guys and a girl, gained and lost a boyfriend, and my roommate got her own spin-off live in drama with a friend of mine.

Cracker Barrel restaurant managers refuse to give me hostessing hours ever since I requested Saturdays and Sundays off so I am working about 11 hours a week. Needless to say, I am looking for another job. I want to knit on Saturdays and spend Sundays in church and fellowshipping with my fellow believers either before or after church.

I am starting to get easily irritated, annoyed, and mood swingy. I am also hearing things. Here and there, whistling, or someone calling my name. Its starting. I am scared, and I feel alone in my situation. There is no one that I have a deep and intimate connection with that I can trust to help hold my hand through this season in my life. The last person that I thought I could rely on to do that simply opted out and left me in the midst of my darkest days. Before things get too far off, I want to go on record as saying I want to be healthy and as appealing as being committed seems, I want to be able to live on my own and support myself. The key to doing that lies in a college education. However, in order to work hard enough to pay bills as well as the Stanford debt, I am going to need more than two shifts a week. Someone suggested that I keep appealing the denial for disability. Its a thought.

Writing. I have a few book ideas, but I still haven't written the article about mental health from a Christian perspective. Since I have so much free time, I might as well get caught up on that, and the reading for my humanities class. I am taking U.S. History and Philosophy this semester. I like the philosophy class more than the history, but that is probably because I haven't missed as many philosophy classes as history.