I really am going to be a bag lady.
I get awakened from a nap this morning by Shay. She asks if I called the Illinois Child Care Program about needing a state id to continue processing the paperwork. I told her, yes, I did, but that they hadn't called me back yet. When she asked if I called the dmv or state id department, i told her not yet, that I was waiting to hear back from the child care program people, she declared with exasperation, "*sigh*, look, it just doesn't seem like you care so we're just gonna have to-I'm just gonna need you to find somewhere else by the end of the month. It seems like you are trying to separate yourself from our problems and if I don't have the money for rent and power and gas, I mean, it effects all of us, " in so many words. She went on to say, "You are the other adult in the house," and "I told you that I would need someone to babysit, that there was no one else, so now I have to change my schedule and have to loose out on 8 hours of work."
I barely had a moment to wake up, let alone process and respond. I managed to get out, "I thought you found someone else for Saturday for July?" But I guess her guy friend either said no or it just didn't work out that way for her. I knew that I may not be able to get out of the babysitting position once I stepped into it, but she assured me that by June she would be able to change her schedule. Its June.
Needless to say, she seemed to have already made up her mind and simply needed an opportune moment to present her decision. I didn't argue or plead, I simply told her to pray, that I hoped her situation got better, and that we would still be able to remain friends. I spent the rest of the day contacting community resources and found out that:
Salvation Army only has a men's shelter
Center for Transitional Women does intake calls on Monday between 10am and 4pm
My church uses the same help book that I already went through so they had no new information for me
A few weeks ago, I ran into Victor at Walmart. He was genuinely interested in how I was doing, we caught up, and before we departed he said, "If you ever need a place to stay..." and I told him thanks, I would remember that. Well, that time seems to be here. I have already explained the situation, and he is cool with letting me crash.
I tell you what, Jesus loves me.
I am thankful for the peace with which I was able to handle this situation, the calmness and love I did my best to hold to as I spoke with Shay and dealt with the various agencies. And the holy ghost brought that meeting with Victor to my rememberance so after I had explored all my other options, I was able to go to him, humbly.
Thank the Lord. I am reminded of
Psalm 37:25
"I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread."
wow. Just. Wow. So is everything going to be alright going back to victor? What's the plan? Do you need to update him on the job situation? Is it just until August?
ReplyDeleteyeah, he knows i have an abundance of jobs, he said the same rules apply as before, just to make sure i dont go into his room, even for a blanket (thats an inside joke-ish thing between us) and not to call maintanence about anything. it will only be until my lease begins in august. i am moving out tomorrow after church. i told shay i would still babysit the rest of the month and would still give her the babysitting money from last month.
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